new year, new mission.

Every year, I always say the same things: I’m going to lose weight, I’m going to do better, blah blah blah. This year, I’m going to follow my heart and do what’s right for myself- not for this person or that person. Someone close to my heart told me that I’m not as happy as I should be because I always do the right thing for others; I put other people’s happiness ahead of my own, which is true. I’m not perfect- I never said I was. However, I associate myself with people who have continued to hurt me in the past. This year, my mission is to be more aware of people and situations. I’m not one to completely cut myself off of people. In fact it is the hardest thing for me to do. I know that this is the best thing for me to do… so little by little, I will distance myself from certain people and their negativity.

Another thing I’ve been thinking about is my weight- I always say I’m going to lose weight… another blah blah blah… this year my mission is to do healthier things and do great things, things I haven’t done before. I want to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge- I want to go to more places. I recently purchased two t-shirts that I had been looking for years and it felt great! I love to do what I want- be in my own skin. I started going back to Weight Watchers- my weight has been going up and down, but I love going to the meetings regardless. I have learned from these meetings that there are people who are not judgmental. There are people out there who go through the same struggles that I go through. I love my leader- slowly I am becoming the person who I want to be… not the person others want me to be.

I’m truly looking forward to this year. I have the feeling that this year is going to be great and full of fantastic experiences. But I do know that there will be challenges too.

Cheers to the New Year everyone!